My company's D&D theme was At the Movies and thanks JY for coming up with so many ideas for me! In the end, I was part of the Kill Bill gang, together with some colleagues. We were kinda siao onz and cranky and had lotsa fun! Hee... Some other colleagues dressed up as Pocahontas, Breakfast at Tiffany's and Freddie Kruger... I think my museum was the most onz... as in onz form and onz the whole dress up thing! Some of the other museums didn't bother much... so boring...

Anyway, as you can see, I was The Bride from Kill Bill... thanks DY for the dress! She's happily taking a bath at the drycleaner's now... dun worry, will send her back to ya soon!

Hey, just realised! It's My First D&D! I'm almost a fresh grad then! Haha...

If you like to look at WAH things it's worth making a trip down to where I work to see this. It's gonna be all ready tomorrow and it glows... nice...

I've become the BUILD-A-BEAR kinda gal!

Wheeee!!!

又老了一岁！

人就是这样子，
一个生日一个生日地过，
忙着许愿，吹蜡烛，吃蛋糕，有时候还真忘了自己已经不小了。

公司同事送我一个特制的Teddy Bear。我很喜欢。
明说：他们觉得你是适合这类玩具熊的女生。
对啊！他们都当真我是个小孩！好好噢！哈哈哈！
JY也送了气球，我顿时返老还童！

今年的生日礼物不多，但礼轻情义重，一句生日快乐也让我很温暖。

生日那天也跟外婆吃饭，很开心。

Ho Chi Minh i go ........ till Sunday girls!

I left my company finally.

Tendered my notice on the 20th Oct and technically supposed to stay till 20th Nov. But i MIA-ed this week. I have been asked to stop meeting customers since i tendered so other than hand-over, i've nothing much left to do already. So i'm free to enjoy my one week of rest. Indulgence.

I'm starting my new job next Monday and am pretty excited though apprehensive. Let me hit the sales target within a month please!!!!!

Hopefully my ex-company (i've had many exes but never an ex-company. quite a novelty this term) doesnt come after me for MIA-ing.

Suting's Wedding!



It was held at Goodwood Park Hotel. Though the invite stated 7pm cocktails, our dear Su didn't want to go early to mingle. Hence, we only picked Zhiyun and Mandy up at Bishan station about 7.30pm as the dinner was going to start at 8.30pm.








After spending time looking for parking and doing illegal maneuvers, we finally entered the ballroom to see Suting looking dazzling in her wedding gown. We slipped in just in time to our table before the wedding march. (See, Su? If we met Zhiyun at 7.45pm we would be marching in with the couple. Hah!)







Guess who was at our table?







校长! Mrs Lee had to entertain her the whole night. (Thanks!) Shirley too much later as she was too caught up with work and forgot about the dinner until Florence called her.



I felt we all looked pretty onz that night but the following photos won't do us justice. Harhar!





The pale ghost with Phoebe and Florence.

The wicked witch in the car. (Curls and makeup courtesy of Moonface)

I didn't manage to get good shots of the wedding couple so i guess we'll have to wait for the official ones from Suting.

I'm in charge of the photos uploading here. Su can flesh out this entry when she's free. Harhar!

真的不想太刻意

不想刻意的去想
就刻意的不去想
不想刻意的追问
就刻意的不追问
不想刻意的解释
就刻意的不解释
不想刻意的见面
就刻意的不见面

两者都不容易

在可以坦然面对之前
我不想再动摇到什么

我是个疯子
这是我的处理方式

反正我反复的解说
一向来都不是什么

会在意的还是会在意
不在意的还是不在意


我也只有这般力量而已

Phoebe-ness and the big bad man

I've been missing in action from this blog for quite a long time. Now that i have a new laptop (Pandora!), you will be hearing from me much, much more. Of course, it helps too that i'm no longer seeing Gerard. In order to distract myself from loneliness, i've planned lists of things to do to keep occupied. But enough of that.

See the photo? Isn't guppy so adorable? (Though mama and papa do not encourage her to look at people slyly) It's one of my favourite photos of her before she became chubbier. I'm so gek that Jesse managed to get a nice shot with her while Wenhao the camera-woman had nothing to show. My camera somemore. Jesse, you know what to do next time eh?

Guppy

Guppy! Our purest love has finally come in the form of this little creature. She wriggles and yawns, and pouts and frowns, as if she knows how much she can get away with. But not quite realising she can really get away with anything! The magical aunties are giving her a special nickname, Guppy :)

Six days to the last instalment of Harry Potter. Ahhh… how? Endings are painful simply because there will be no more of it.

Anyways, Miffy, Ming and I were in uniform today… haha, sort of.


Ming!



Me & Miffy... sitting beside me...


We were co-ordinated for the 飛越時空 photo shoot at the City Hall. The guy spying on me is from my lyrics class and erm... he has no impression of me being in that class at all. Huh... why lidat? In case you’re wondering why I was being anti-social with the pen and file, I actually had to fill up a form about my 音樂旅途and創作過程 etc. which took me ages cos I really wanted to give some crappy answer but you know how it is with me and words… I’m all about them words, over numbers… hahaha… Aiyo… I’m crappy.

Ahhh… Anyway, I hope the 飛越時空 pics will turn out nice… then perhaps I can get the people at Billiard Bar to change my pic! Argh! Jiong Shun (the guy who played the guitar at I-Bar) was playing in place of Ein yesterday and while looking at the promo piece of whatever-you-call-it plastered at the door of BB, he commented, “Have you all thought of going for makeovers?” Oh gee… thanks…

The last time I took pictures at the City Hall was 2 years ago with the gals, in our graduation gowns. Let me dig out the pics.



Waaaahhh!!! Ok, this is the only presentable pic from the er… collection. HW, you’ll realise that you look 10yrs younger now while I look 10kg lighter. And WH’s hair 10x smaller! Hahahaha!!!

Anyway, Ming and I wanted to play tourist again (since we were at City Hall and the Padang) but cos Miffy was so heavy (I’m getting good practice for Phoebe) we didn’t do much of the sight-seeing/photo-taking thing. Instead, we did the typical Singaporean-on-holiday thing. We went shopping!!! Hurhur… shall parade my spoils another day.

*****




ST had this competition where you're supposed to say in 20words why your best friend is your best friend, send it in with a nice pic and stand to win S$6000! Ok, I missed the deadline already. Hehheh... and XY was all, "Why now then you say???" Oh pls... not like we have any really onz pic loh! You keep complaining that you're fat blah blah blah... dun wanna take pictures. Grrr... Anyway, we finally took a pic together since eons ago! And you don't look fat in this pic lah! Face so small still hide behind me...

Oh, maybe I will write:
She is my best friend because she lets me stand further from the camera so my face can look smaller. (Which is an outright lie.)
(Then can send in a pic where XY's face is damn big and mine super small, behind hers.)

XY was on course here 2 weeks ago so I stayed over at her hotel. Onz! Cos I could pig out on her company’s expense!!! She’s on this project now which requires her to come back for a day or two every week or so… hurhurhur. So thanks in advance ABN… you are very generous! I will enjoy the meals!!!

While XY was back, I borrowed one of her onz dresses and everyone at work commented that the dress was onz… yeah… because it is onz! But I look abit silly in the 自拍 pic so I shall not show... anyway cannot see the dress clearly.


They finally took down the ferris wheel at Bishan. It’s a pity we didn’t get to go for a ride in it. But I’m relieved that the carnival’s leaving cos I don’t like seeing the ferris wheel in the mornings… Ming should know cos I’m always complaining about how 它在嘲笑我！Haha… yeah, I’m mad! When I was staying over with XY at The Oriental, I thought I’ve escaped from the eyes of the smug ferris wheel, but when I drew open the curtains, there was the Singapore Flyer staring right at me! Boooo!!! Cheap conspiracy!!! Anyways, XY says next time she’s staying at Fullerton and I’m super happy cos aside from the luxury factor, XY says Fullerton has no windows! Hahaha!!! Good loh!!!

Tomorrow’s singing class again and I’m having problems with 我懷念的 so I’m probably gonna sing something else… I’m so random…my blogging is so random... ahhh… the temperaments of a young mind. Hehheh…

There's this place called Mr Tea at SMU that sells a large cup of my new drug - Milo Dino for only $1.50! Make way food republic! Hah! Ahhh... I'm so deprived of blogging I'm resorting to this phone blogging thing. For busy people on the move.

Before this picture becomes old news, I will blog about it because, boys and girls, ignore the toilet setting and that vain, self-absorbed expression for a moment and you will realise... Gaaaaahhh!!! I can actually fit into Suemin's uniform and don't I look onz? Hahaha...

Was supposed to be enthusiastic so I borrowed 2 sets of uniform (one for HW) for the campus superstar recording, so that the two of us can sit up front with Kelly and gang. Decided against it at the last minute because Ming wasn't gonna wear any school uniform and I wasn't gonna let her sit alone. Also, I think it's freaky if anybody sees me on t.v. like that. Wei might kill me. XY will kill me.

So anyways, enjoy the Su in school-u pic here.

We keep saying we should have a sch-u themed something... I think we should. Somebody should organise something!

Today was my first day of work and I really felt like sleeping at 430pm. I should really be sleeping now. And to end off abruptly, three random thoughts about the job:

1) The hours are longer than I had hoped :(

2) I'm convinced that I can do the job but I still feel pangs of inadequacy!

3) Thank God it's Friday tomorrow!!! YES!!!

More on this later!

Introducing PHOEBE!!!
























This is a combined entry for the last 2 checkups. The doctor did try to take clearer pictures the second time round but well, let’s just say he’s a doctor and not a photographer for a reason. The mother is visibly more excited already! Harhar! Good sign!
Behind in yellow is Phoebe's dad, getting us some Milo.
















Phoebe, we cannot wait for your arrival! Actually, we can, because we want you to come out only when you are ready. Hee… You are gonna be so loved by your parents, soooo loved it’s gonna be amazing.

I hope that for most of your life, you will be happy and cheerful like Aunty Pixie and Aunty Moon, let them sprinkle you with their optimism. But for sure there will be times when you feel morose or scared, even lonely or depressed… because all these emotions come with being a human. But it’s ok :) It will always be ok. Because you see, there are so many of us magical Aunties, each with a different (maybe some similar) function, and alongside your dad and mom, we will be there for you. Whether you need a confidante, a teacher, a partner-in-crime, a doormat… you will find that at least one of us can play the role. *cough* We’re quite into role-playing. *cough*

Ahhh… But charming as you will be, I think you’ll find other wonderful people to fill these roles in your life, and that is really the greater blessing. And as your magical Aunties, we will be contented to just flying around in the background, doing what magical Aunties do, which is to fly around in the background and eat cake all day long. And get fat.

Yes, you can brag about our flying if you want.

I'm super tickled by this Carlsberg Beer tagline that says: Farewell Ang Mo Kio... Hello Monaco!
(They are having this 'Win a trip to Monaco' thing.)

Hahahaha!!! So smart, these people! I saw it on the back bumper of a cab but a pity it's not on their website... It's so witty!

Oh, and does it reflect something about the beer guzzling community of our society that so many of our beer advertisements seem to associate beer-drinking with 'ability to attract friends'? What? Lonely people drink beer? Is it???

I didn't take a picture of the before cos I was too traumatised but hey look! My Dad's car is spanking new now! Yay!!!

In fact this side is now looking even better than the other side and Dad was in a super good mood when it came back all nice and polished. (Ok, now's not the time to remind me of the cost.)

Happie :)

Now that I've duly injected my body with sugars, artificial flavourings, preservatives and other chemical what-nots, I can start typing. Hurhur.

Today is I-NEED-JUNK-FOOD day!

A week or so ago, HW saw a Channel 8 drama (we call it The Mar & Venus Show) on TV mobile. The drama tries to look into the mechanics of men-women relationships and as the story runs, they often freeze a frame then print out words of wisdom on the side, such as 'Tears are a woman's most powerful weapon'. (Urgh. So cliche. Puke.)
Cliche aside, HW commented that they are propagating warped ideas to viewers by displaying such 'teachings' in a seemingly unbiased manner. But it is, after all, a show of fiction. I actually believe that Singaporean viewers ought to have their own minds in discerning what's good or no good on T.V. They should be able to decide for themselves if something is dished out in jest or full seriousness (and even if it's the latter, it doesn't mean they have to buy it).

But anyways, on this topic... I was listening to FM98.7 this morning and they were running a Twisties contest, promoting Twisties and all that. I heard the DJ say matter-of-factly, "Twisties is good for everyone!" (What rubbish! Twisties is junk!!! The healthy-eating me is getting worked up!) It's so evil to disguise a promotion this way! It was clearly not an advertisement or a play but a semi-conversation between two of the DJs.

Well just so they know, I, champion-discerning-radio-listener, will not be taken-in with all this media crap. Hahahahah!!!

So what happened was, I came to the office and found that I had an honest craving for junk food, specifically, TWISTIES!!! (Just couldn't get that name out of my mind.) So I went down to the nearest 7-11 and grabbed a cheese-flavoured Twisties. Hurhurhur... I even threw in 2 packets of Kinder Bueno and a pack of Peanut Butter M&Ms.

YAY!!! *Confetti*

Ivan very freakily asked us about a book - a book! - the other day. It was The Little Prince. So I promised to let him borrow it and said I'd reread it just in case he had any questions while reading.

WAH!!! Ivan 害我!!! Because reading The Little Prince was super emo... boohoohoo! You've been warned, it's not for the faint-hearted.

I remember reading The Little Prince many years ago... it was a very quick read and as I returned it to the library, I was clueless as to why it was thought to be that great. Then, for some reason, Ming bought a copy of it and that is why we have a copy lying at home, left untouched until now.

Now, many years later, I picked it up and devoured every word with a sort of clarity that had slipped me by before. Almost as if I was digesting it for the first time.

I'm not sure I particularly love the Little Prince...or any of the characters in the book as many people do. I'm just... not sure. The characters are not clearly loveable to me, in that sense. If there's a character I love, I think it would be first and foremost the narrator.

But the Little Prince himself, is real and what makes him real is that he has his eccentricities. He has made mistakes, he has been hurt and he is struggling to come to terms with all of that.
The Little Prince also started off confused and unsure. Any liking I have for him would be due to his courage. It was difficult for him to leave his planet, to leave his rose, but he needed to. He had to make his journey. He just had to leave. It was... his destiny and also the destiny of the many others who'd meet him along the way.

I think I can see now, how it's all purposeful and meaningful, every ounce of pain and loneliness in the book. They all contribute to a better understanding of the lives that the characters are leading.

By the end of the book, I had sunk into an emotional abyss so deep,

but it was all kinda sweet.

Fact is,
I have a father. He gave birth to me. He loves me. He cares for me. He works hard to provide a comfortable life for my family.

God, please help me focus on these great things!

Do you believe in luck?
Seriously, do you believe in this superfluous thing called luck?

Because it seems that since I got back from the UK, I have been having a spate of bad luck. And if I’m superstitious, I might reason the bad luck to be brought upon for several reasons.
1) I might have brought some nasty spirit back from the UK (no, it wouldn’t be from HK).
2) Knowing how I like to shoot off my mouth and say all, bare all when I talk about Gods, deities etc, I might have accidentally offended one (or more) of them.
3) I have not been bringing my amulets around with me and this might have caused me to be down-er than usual.

So what is it? And how do I rectify it?

Thing is, I’m not sure if I really want to blame everything on luck. It could be just me, my attitude or the way I handle situations. It could be life and the challenges that come with it. And if I take a step back (as I always should), things are really not that bad. Not that bad.

Anyway, here’s the latest unlucky shit that happened to me.

I just got into this little car accident. And my dad was super pissed off. Sigh. There I was having this happy-ish morning… But of course, I should be grateful that no one was hurt other than the vehicles. And I should be grateful that hey, the fact that I can drive means I’m privileged enough to possess a driver’s license. And at least I am and still am healthy enough to drive.

You see, there are many other positive and great things happening to me but I often fail to see them because I’m immature and self-centred (both, only to a certain extent). Maybe when something crappy happens, I should take it as an opportunity to look at my fortunate bits. Like if a song I don't want to hear comes on the radio (as now), I should just be happy that I have ears and that I'm not deaf.

I should not get too caught up in my misery. I should not get too caught up getting caught up in my misery.

I must celebrate Thanksgiving this year.

I guess being positive is a habit to be practised and cultivated but well, every joy is a conquest, so let’s just see how far I can go in trying to focus on those great things.