FARMERS

PP-chan plants strawberries in his garden. He is an alright strawberry farmer, just alright. His strawberries are plump and juicy but not exceptionally big or red.
PP-chan grows very good aubergines though he hasn't been planting them for over three years. The aubergines that PP-chan grew were delicious. When I wanted to try my hand at planting aubergines a year ago, he taught me how. And yes, my aubergines grew shiny into a deep hue of violet. Happie!

Last night, bending over his little strawberry plot, PP-chan told me that he might just start growing aubergine again. Why not? I said. Cause he’s good at it. But it wasn’t so simple to PP-chan. He confessed that the smell of aubergines made him itch.
When he grew aubergines three years ago, he couldn’t sleep from the itch and the first thing that came crashing into his wakeful reality every morning was the itch. He itched when he walked, itched when he talked, itched when he was alone and itched when he was with friends. Now that he had shaken it off, he didn’t want to itch again but he wanted to own a plot of blooming aubergines again – for the market place. Because the market place didn’t like his strawberries… they said his heart wasn’t in it when he grew them so they just didn’t work.
At this point, PP-chan gave a :( expression.
He said whether his heart was in it or not the strawberries just grew the same way. And they were not all that bad, were they? I shook my head but didn’t say anything. To tell the truth, I had never bought PP-chan’s strawberries because 3P-chan grew them better and sold them cheaper.

Then I told PP-chan, why don’t you just grow the aubergines and put up with the itch?

PP-chan agreed. Perhaps the itch isn't something that he cannot put up with. Afterall, sometimes when he saw how healthy his aubergines were growing, he even forgot about his itch for several hours! Besides, in time to come, he may grow numb to the itch and accept it. In time to come, a special medicine may be invented to combat his itch.

3P-chan came and asked what we were talking about. I told him. He told PP-chan that nothing was worth the itch. If it were him, he’d live his life as itchlessly as possible.

But 3P-chan is 3P-chan and I am I and we all have different opinions. So it really doesn’t matter what we think.

我們也只不過是PP-chan生命的過客。PP-chan的故事，對我們來說也只是收音機播放的另一首歌罷了。



Narrator: P-chan
Characters: PP-chan & 3P-chan

I am not one who makes a fuss out of nothing. So this morning when I got out of bed and stepped on a moth, I only wrapped it – tight – in a piece of tissue and dumped it into my bin. The moth was half dead, possibly the after effects from my insecticide spraying spree last night. I only quietly hoped that it wasn't my grandfather or grandmother visiting. Today's not my birthday, their death day, Qing Ming or the seventh month. Shouldn't have been them.

I am trying to win WW for the most-posts-in-one-day award... cos the last three posts were all posted today (although the Singapore time setting shows it as two separate days).

MIPPI-CHAN, BALDING

So, P-chan is balding.
I looked at his photo and sort of laughed - inwardly. But when PP-chan verbalised it and said, ‘They keep making fun of P-chan because he is balding.’ My inward laugh crystallized into a sound. Heehee!
Actually, I am also balding. Shit. Though I think my situation is not as bad as P-chan’s. He’s donning a cap to hide the spot now. Hurhur… spot. Hurhur… no wonder must always wear cap.
He has PPP-chan defending him, saying all sorts of rubbish in good humour. What was it that PPP-chan said? I’m sure PP-chan told me but I forgot.
Something about… something about… getting in touch with his sensitive side or some crappy stuff. And that was quite well received. PPP-chan has her ways, she does. Good ways they are though. I mean, I wouldn’t be bothered to defend P-chan even if my life depended on it… well, only if my life depended on it.
PP-chan would, of course, but I wouldn’t. PP-chan and PPP-chan thinks P-chan wouldn’t look that bad even if he really goes bald as an egg. Harhar! Alright, to their credit, that’s rather the truth.

I shall go have a Yakult now.




Narrator: MiPPi-chan
Characters: P-chan, PP-chan & PPP-chan

I really wanna clean up my room but must wait until after my submission on the 26th June... I really wanna do laundry... but must wait.






See, so messy... cannot make it.

這幾天天氣開始炎熱，春天還未坐暖就已聞到夏天的風。
我隨著烈陽活了起來。不愧是熱帶島嶼之女啊，怎麽我從來沒有察覺到？

離回家的日子越來越近，我是及期待又怕受傷害。不是不想離開，而是為回國后的未來而心慌。什麽時候起，未來竟然變得有點可怕？
飄忽不定的可怕，永久安居的可怕。我一直都在擔心。一直都執著，想要步上最完美的道路。我卻弄不清楚什麽是完美。

如王菲所唱：我試圖接近幸福，但什麽是幸福？我概念模糊。

矛盾的我要到什麽時候才能開竅啊？什麽時候才能真正了解‘It’s my life’這道理？

無論如何，要感謝家人和朋友。

HAMUJIRO TEACHES P-CHAN ABOUT COURAGE

P-chan is freaking out because he read somewhere that you got to THINK before you TAKE ACTION and be PREPARED to face the CONSEQUENCES.
Think he did not do but action he did take. Prepared he is not but consequences there are.

P-chan looks at his pet hamster Hamujiro and wishes for some courage from him. But Hamujiro only hobbles around giving P-chan a nonchalant stare. P-chan lowers his head and shakes it in despair.

P-chan remembers the time when he was as small as Hamujiro and he too could stay in little cage and run on a little wheel everyday. Bliss. P-chan wants to be Hamujiro because P-chan loves Hamujiro and sometimes when he loves Hamujiro so much he wants to become Hamujiro.
Also, Hamujiro is so tiny. Hamujiro is so tiny that all his tiny brain can contain are minuscule worries. P-chan can, with a clenched fist, crush all of Hamujiro’s worries for him! Hamujiro is a loved and protected hamuhamu.

P-chan closes his eyes and dream. In his dream, P-chan is Hamujiro. He behaves Hamujiro and does all Hamujiro things.

P-chan wakes up drenched in cold sweat from scalp to toe.




Narrator: Me
Characters: P-chan & Hamujiro
Guest starring: Hamujiro

FYI: This P-chan story is not linked to the previous P-chan story.

PP-CHAN GRADUATES

P-chan is attending his friend, PP-chan’s convocation next Friday. He is happy for PP-chan because how often do you graduate? This is PP-chan’s first. I mean, I’d be happy if I were him.
PP-chan will go on stage, shake hands with some big shot guy, take the baton, bow to audience and float off stage. Easy-peasy.
But P-chan worries unnecessarily and prays that PP-chan doesn’t PUA TOU as 3P-chan said he will. SURE PUA TOU, 3P-chan prophesized.
PP-chan, PUA TOU? Nah… he is damn relaxed, he’s gonna saunter up and saunter down. Easy-peasy.

PP-chan has his future before him now. PP-chan can do whatever he wants to do. PP-chan can look for a job here, there or anywhere he wants. PP-chan 長大了！P-chan looks at PP-chan and thinks, everything has changed but nothing has changed.
P-chan 是個傻子。PP-chan 也是個傻子。But in different ways.

PP-chan will always have happiness because PP-chan is well-adjusted and so is his friend 4P-chan. I hope 3P-chan can find happiness too. And soon.

お幸せにPPちゃん！あんたのこと見守ってるよ！Pちゃんはそう言っていた。



The adventures of P-chan is a new thing that I’m doing… for… fun.
Narrator is ME. Characters P-chan, PP-chan, 3P-chan and 4P-chan. For now.

Firstly, Kuma is a turtle, see! Then, have a cup of coffee.

And don't go blind reading this:

01. I know all the words to 'I'm a barbie girl.' (NO: So off form, of cos not!)
02. I'm obsessed with high heels. (NO: I like-y… but not an obsession.)
03. I'm the youngest child. (YES: hohoho… thank god!)
04. I am a shopoholic. (NO: economically handicapped)
05. I love hoop earrings. (YES: I love a lot of things.)
06. I am a virgo. (YES: Moon sign)
07. I love beer. (NO)
08. I can't live without lip gloss. (NO: lip balm more like it.)
09. I can't live without music. (duh…)
10. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months. (NO: my misery visits fortnightly.)
11. I spend money I don't have. (NO)
12. I'll be in college forever. (NO)
13. I've seen Jason Mraz. (YESSSSSS!!!!!!!!!! I started on this just so I can put a resounding YESSSSS!!!!!!! here.)
14. I get annoyed easily. (YES: I think I do.)
15. I eventually want kids. (YES)
16. I have more then a couple of horrible memories. (NO: Just a couple.)
17. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire. (huh… wahlao… NO.)
18. I am a person. (YES)
19. I start film school in February. (NO: but my birthday is in February.)

20. I love the rain. (YES)
21. I love taking pictures. (YES: on both sides of the lens.)
22. I LUV girls who are fake. (NO: I HATE!)
23. I can be mean when I want to. (YES: Mean is me.)
24. My dreams are bizarre. (NO)
25. One of my close friends is gay. (NO)
26. I have way too many purses. (NO: I want more.)
27. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times. (NO: Only once during a sleepover at XY’s house, WH was around too and we didn’t really concentrate.)
28. I usually dress how I feel that day.(YES: usually)
29. I love 'Sex and the City'. (YES)
30. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason. (NO: there’s usually a reason.)
31. I hate when people are late Or too damn early. (YES: I don’t care if they’re early as long as I’m not with the person who likes to be early and kena have to wait for the others who are sure to be late. Wahlao… I have a lot of experience with people being late, I can write an essay on this. All sorts of ridiculous people in this world… and I'm not even thinking about JY/WH/Wei - hahahahhaha... okok, you on time er... nowadays...)
32. I procrastinate. (YES)
33. I love winter. (NO: but I don’t hate.)
34. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. (NO: no leh… I need more!!!)
35. I love to sleep. (YES)
36. I wish I were smarter. (YES)
37. I'm afraid of flying. (NO: when landing and wheels touch ground, I do enjoy the velocity. I do pray that we don’t hit anything.)
38. I love singing. (duh!!!)
39. I am addicted to 'The O.C.' (NO: ‘was’ and only for the first season.)
40. I love my hair. (YES: but not always the style and condition of hair.)
41. I never fight with my parents. (NO: never say never but seldom or hardly.)
42. I love the beach. (YES: the sea! I don’t like mountains and jungles etc.)
43. I have never had the chicken pox. (NO: Had it in P5.)

44. I'm excited for the future. (YES)
45. I can't control my emotions. (YES: more and more so.)
46. I can't wait till New Year's. (YES: I’ll be home!)

47. I love the show 'Rich Girls'. (NO: never even heard of it.)
48. I love my friends. (YES: to varying degrees of course.)
49. Christmas is my favorite holiday. (NO: CNY.)

50. I can be very insecure sometimes. (YES: I think everyone can be.)
53. I hate my computer. (NO!!!!!!!! I love Miffy and Baby!!!!!)
54. I love guys that play the guitar. (NO: not say play guitar then onz lor…)
55. I state the obvious. (NO: I don’t say anything.)
57. I love to dance. (NO: it’s not love.)
59. I hate cleaning my room. (NO: sometimes – but seldom – I like even.)
60. I tend to get jealous easily. (NO: only for things that matter.)
61. I love cute underwear. (YES)
62. I love John Mayer. (NO)
63. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused. (NO: not all the time.)
64. I want to go to Greece. (YES)
65. I don't like to study for tests. (NO: I don't... this yes/no is getting confusing.)
67. I am too forgiving. (YES & NO)
68. I have a horrible sense of direction. (NO: not great at navigating but not to the extent of horrible.)
69. I love high school. (YES: the whole idea of it.)

70. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things. (NO)

71. I'm a daddy's girl. (NO: but I comply.)

72. I love kisses on the forehead. (NO: but I don’t hate.)
73. I love the color pink. (NO: I love the colour blue.)
74. I love to sew. (NO!!!!!!!!!!!)
75. I have blue eyes. (NO)
76. I love the Olsen Twins. (huh? Oh! NO)
77. I played soccer for 14 years. (Siao! NO)

78. I become stressed easily. (NO)
79. I HATE liars. (NO: I is One… hahahahahaha!!!)
80. I like comfy sweatpants. (YES: I like a lot of things.)
82. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained. (NO: not particularly. I like the salty smell of sea.)
83. I love my family. (duh!)
84. I hate needles. (NO)
85. I am a perfectionist. (NO)
86. I always wanted to learn to play the drums. (NO: but I don’t mind learning.)
87. I love to dream and fantasize. (DUNNO: I’m delusional so although I like to, I kinda wish I could do it less.)
88. I would love to have my own fashion line. (YES: why wouldn’t I love such a thing?)

89. I can be quite selfish. (YES: but I don't think I'm special in this sense.)
90. I still act like a little kid sometimes. (YES: I guess… not sure what acting like a little kid is leh… Childish I am not. Child-like I am. Hohohoho!!!)
91. I despise dishonesty. (NO: depends on the subject matter.)
92. I love pictures. (YES: photographs.)

93. I love music. (eh… recurring question…)
94. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school. (YES)
95. I love getting stuff in the mail. (YES)

97. I hate the feeling of being lonely. (YES: my boggart)
99. I hate the fact that i wear size 5 jeans. (DUNNO but I don’t hate my jeans size leh! Hurhurhurhur!!!)
100. I've never watched "Sex and the City" and I don't really care if I do. (NO: Already said I like it what! YES: I care that I’ve watched it cos I like-y it!!!)
101. I really don't want to add three things to this list. (NO: I don’t mind but I’m not going to.)
103. I love Harry Potter. (YES: the book and the boy!)
104. I am patient, to a point. (YES: wahlao… to a point… ok, yeah…)
105. I like bunnies. (NO! evil and sneaky they are.)

106. I often don't think before I speak and then regret it. (NO: I think, but there’s still room for regret.)

107. I love summer. (YES: watermelons.)
108. I miss my friends who I haven't seen for a while. (YES)
109. I like the feeling of sneezing. (NO)
110. The thought of special brownies make me giggle. (NO: what special brownies? Like V-day 告白 kinda thing?)
111. Sometimes I actually enjoy school but other times I just want it all to stop. (YES: a very general statement.)
112. I work at a convenience store and strongly dislike it. (NO: sounds fun leh!)

115. I like lord of the rings. (YES: You can use the word ‘love’ here.)
121. I’m an azn kid HELL YEAH! REPRESENT. hahah.. Oh, I'm going to get shot. (NO: what’s azn? Clearly not my generation. Wah… this thing is long…)
122. I like to watch movies that make you cry. (YES)
123. I love playing in the rain. (NO)
124. I’ve watched a porn. (YES)
126. People that shove religion down my throat bother me. (YES)
127. I miss my home of nine years. (YES: 21 years!)
130. I need a life. (apparently YES)

131. I love roller coasters. (YES)
132. I am scared of heights. (YES: but just a little.)

133. My nails are painted pink. (NO: three days ago, yes.)
136. I am in LOVE with Johnny Depp's eyes. (YES: and not just his eyes.)
137. I'm a hopeless romantic. (NO: I can be very rational.)
140. I get into trouble at least 3 times a week for stupid shit. (hahahhahahahaaa!!! So poor thing… but NO.)
141. I have never gotten straight A's. (NO: I think not… oh, in primary school yes lah! YES.)
143. Olives are my favorite! (NO: but I quite like.)

144. Kittens make me happy. (NO: not so easy.)
146. I am a supervisor at an amusement park. (Eh??? NO)

149. I have more than one favorite color. (NO)

150. The end of 'Big Fish' made me cry. (YES)
159. The Notebook is the saddest movie. (NO: 新不了情)
160. I'm gangsta. (NO… hehhehheh… I wish!)
176. I am cold. (NO: the radiator is back on and today is damn sunny!)
177. I have a boxer dog. (NO: I have no dog :( )

178. I wish I had green/blue eyes. (NO)

180. I love japanese food. (YES)
181. I failed my piano exam. (NO: all pass but still play like shit.)

My 'yes(s) and no(s)' are a mess... puke puke puke...

Nice view from my room :)
I have to do this... 哦 狼牙月 伊人憔悴 我举杯 饮尽了风雪...
Tonight's moon is even more 狼牙！！！

Like today lor... today I went shopping. Still got a few things that didn't make it into the picture. Hohoho... wahlao... I need the retail therapy lor!!!

This was some time ago... wahlao... I have no iron and some of my clothes get damn crumpled and ugly... boohoohoo... but I still wear! Sonomama de... I am the lair-fair uni student... boohoohoo...

Dunno how come this pic came out so tiny... but the ducklings are kawaii... (click on the pic to see them clearly)

PLEASE HELP ME CHECK HOW MUCH THIS PAIR OF SHOES COST IN SINGAPORE TOPSHOP! VERY GIAN! THANKS!

Aiyoh... the pictures are all barabara...
Buruburuburuburuburuburuburuburu... I am Buru-buru Doggu... It has been damn cold in my room cos they switched off the (central) radiator so now (indoors) it feels even colder than winter! I wish I have my Japan Dian4 Tan3... my hands and feet feels damn cold now... buruburu... it's damn cold when I sleep even though I have a thick duvet, I have to contort my legs into awkward positions to keep my feet warm... buruburu. I am so Can3!!! When I tell a joke, nobody laughs!!! (Hehehehheeeehehhee... Leng3 Xiao4 Hua4 mah!!!)

Ok, that's all for today! Alot of work and zero motivation.

文字文字文字。密密麻麻地，整整齊齊地，操練在熒光屏上。流着汗水的文字，多麽努力的文字，是我的，我的孩子，我卻對他們沒什麽感覺。我平日的歇斯底里掩蓋着無動於衷。

我擅于表現的無動於衷只會出現在歇斯底里的時候。

*NANA向大家招手哦！嗨！！！*

******

對於不知道的人可能會覺得莫名其妙，可是我自命英明地想到了一些東西，如下：

創作是需要理由的。 聼我説下去。

他相信所以他創作。
他沉淪所以他創作。
他瘋癲所以他創作。


大家都需要一些理由。告訴我，你想做哪一個他？

不能不明不白。

The internet at my hall has been a little sort sort dei but miraculously, HK Radio 903 played through the night! Felt nice waking up to live voices, made me feel happy enough to go back to sleep.
Good choice of Chinese songs on 903 this morning (their evening)… I want their songlist! Only caught one song title: 小美人 by 旺福樂團. Anyone has that song?

My messy room is totally spoiling my Fengshui therefore, today I am gonna pack! I am so clean! I am sacrificing time to pack my room instead of writing my essay leh!!! Heehee…

******

Sometimes I think I go through life without knowing what’s going on although I do try to get a grip on things. It’s because I take myself too seriously and ask to be taken too seriously too. I behave like I’ve so-thought-it-through but I haven’t lor… maybe I couldn’t admit that I am flippant and moody. I end up being a little 后知后觉 amongst other things. But well, now I say yes I am - flippant and moody.
So I'm gonna start taking myself a lot less seriously from now on. And egg people on to take me less seriously. Like, when I say I think you are damn off lah, I don’t really mean it. Or, I might have meant it when I said it (or not) but how I feel won’t last forever. I may have changed my mind (or not). So don’t believe what I say a hundred percent. I may (or may not) believe myself totally also. So what I’ve just said, maybe don’t believe also.

******

DUH!!!

Aiyoh… dunno what I’m writing… hahaha… (seriously, there are too many seriouslies lor~) I typed the above five days ago but since all my 乖孩子 have been updating their blogs, I thought I shouldn’t let things stagnate for too long here. This is one of those ‘today I went to the supermarket’ blogs.

Recently I’ve been having mood swings… Woohoo! Up, down and the whole way round! Siao… But I haven’t given up! I’m still thankful to be alive! I have goals in life and the very living, breathing me is given the chance to make my way towards them! Today is 12th May 2006 (gulp!) but shall leave the date as five days ago since the bulk of this blog was written then.

Eh... I cannot edit the date leh...

我把这张相片放上了电脑荧幕，当壁纸。
我在电脑前呆坐了一个下午。
我看着我看着猫看着门。

我有这么好看吗？
猫有这么好看吗？
门有这么好看吗？

其实也只是因为。。。



我把这张相片放上了电脑荧幕，当壁纸。

人的身体里是否真的有个时钟？
0700 起床
0730 早餐
0900 开工
1200 午餐 等等。

是否是 ，很自然地，
0岁出世
1岁说话，走路
12岁来月经
25岁生孩子？？？

因为，25岁的我突然想当妈妈。

*cue婴儿号啕大哭之声*

这是个荒谬的发想，因为我离金钱与婚姻都太遥远，现时不可能当上妈妈。大自然的原理之一：人是为了传宗接代而存在的。如果这是千真万确的，那我现在的感觉可以归就于它。25岁，母性泛滥。我的身体是顺着这个原理在运作。笨蛋的身体，还好脑子是聪明又前卫的。生孩子嘛，你说25岁好我就25岁生吗？有那么简单？

写到这里都有点不想生了。


人家卢巧音都还没生！

很想當媽媽
曲：凱文 詞：陳少

用了過份臂力 雙手攬緊你
用了過份努力 不鬆一口氣
願永遠 日夜一起

# 被你攝入鏡內 畫面多優美
共你躺在雪地 高飛不喘氣
而但我怕 樂極生悲
我倆可相對 亦會 永遠失去
我要保管你 在我的身軀 #

* 很想當媽媽 我不理代價
手中的娃娃 會將愛淨化
動靜亦是像你吧
在每夜伴著入睡 讓我表演結他
很想當媽媽 買一隻木馬
哭聲怎喧嘩 我不會害怕
面目亦是像你吧
逐漸逐漸讓我不怕
愛戀的氧化

讓我抱著抱著再看迪斯尼
讓我吻著吻著小小的手臂
而像與你 日夜一起
Repeat #
很想當媽媽 買一隻木馬
哭聲怎喧嘩 我不會害怕
面目亦是像你吧
逐漸逐漸讓我感覺 那身體變化 Repeat *

You go first!!!

You go first!!! Dozo!!!

今天活動量超少，整天坐在電腦前拼命地打字，趕故事。也不敢多吃，小心地維持了少動少吃的生活。

後來, 看了一則令我心寒的新聞。

後來，狂吃。

我在我慵懶，充滿軟綿綿脂肪的身體裏，附加了一千個卡路里。該死！如果我成了大胖子，那什麽夢想都不可能成真了。我就是沒有毅力。

我不要！我不要！
我不要！我不要！
我不要！我不要！

我不要變成大胖子！！！！！！！！我知罪了！！！！！！！！！！

Ok，明天少吃。


孩子們，意大利的事下次再聊哦！

送你們狂吃的照片。那些狂吃的日子啊！那些白白的脂肪！

Attended a function at the Red Dot Design Museum by Style Asia. Loads of guys in teeny trunks to drool at. Jon Jonsson (Manhunt USA) , Rocky, Blu (hot young Pinoy models), Ron Lam (my pao)... Had loads of fun celebrity watching too. I'll upload the secretly filmed video of the fashion show when i'm free.

Wenhao and Suyi. Look how young we were. Tender, firm skin. Skinnier.

 

可惜不是我。
香港乐坛由侧田来拯救。

尖沙嘴，中环，九龙堂。
万盏红绿灯，闪烁中带有节拍。
节拍串成了节奏，这节奏是否还有本事带领中文音乐？
侧田，try harder! 靠你了！所以加油！

（跟杰伦PK吧！）



我想唱侧田的歌。

Now that my baby has passed the 13th day mark, i feel safer about announcing his arrival.

Welcome dear. May you grow to be a strong, healthy Tom-cat.

You know your boyfriend is stressed when he starts drawing these on MSN......

He then spins a story to portray his inner turmoil and frustration.....

May the kitten live to see April.